"Malacopa"/ ALIVE

"Malacopa" is Spanish for those times when you get very very drunk and that causes you to behave violently or become depressed. Mix both,then serve, and that's me tonight. God only knows why.
Anyways, here's my "malacopa" song, along with the video.



"I'm Alive" lyrics

I am what you want me to be,
And I'm your worst fear
You'll find it in me.
Come closer...
Come closer...
I am more than memory
I am what might be,
I am mystery.
You know me
So show me.
When I appear it's
Not so clear if
I'm a simple spirit
Or I'm flesh and blood...
But I'm alive, I'm alive, I am so alive,
And I feed on the fear
That's behind your eyes.
And I need you
To need me
It's no surprise
I'm alive... So alive... I'm alive.
I am flame and I am fire,
I am destruction,
Decay and desire
I'll hurt you... I'll heal you...
I'm your wish,
Your dream come true,
And I am your darkest
Nightmare too
I've shown you...
I own you.
And though you made me,
You can't change me
I'm the perfect stranger
Who knows you too well.
And I'm alive, I'm alive, I am so alive,
And I'll tell you the truth
If you let me try.
You're alive, I'm alive,
And I'll show why
I'm alive... So alive... I'm alive
I'm right behind you.
You say forget,
But I remind you.
You can try to hide,
You know that I will find you.
'Cause if you won't grieve me
You won't leave me behind...
Ah, ah, ah,
Whoa, oh, oh,
Whoa, oh, oh...
No, no, no!
I'm alive, I'm alive, I am so alive,
If you climb on my back,
Then we both can fly.
If you try to deny me
I'll never die
I'm alive... So alive... I'm alive... Yeah, yeah... I'm alive... I'm alive... I'm alive... I'm alive!


There. Now that I've let it out and highlighted the most important parts,I feel a whole lot better.
Welcome to my dark side.You'll be hearing from it a little more often than I'd like.
And I'm not possesive, I'm merely territorial.

The Irony of Music...

Lately, I've been listening to music like I never had before; in 30-something years of life (and an afterlife of sorts) I limited myself to certain bands I KNEW I liked. Why waste my time finding more music when the one I had always listened to was just fine? Well,it's true that every now and then I'd hear something new that I liked and add it to my playlist.
Ayways, lately that playlist has been growing at an impressive degree;as I said before, I've been listening to music I had never heard or thought I would like before. Some of it fits perfectly with my "type of music", but most of it doesn't.

Here I give you a few examples of Music I never thought I would like until I was proved wrong.

The Ting Tings
I know, I know...What The Fuck. But one of their songs got stuck in my head (stupid TV), and the Kid dowloaded it along with some other songs. Turns out I like their style, and their lyrics are pretty nice, too. My favorites by them:Great DJ and That's Not My Name

"Taking Chances" by Celine Dion.
Don't even get me started on this. I hate corny, sweet,romantic "I love you baby,be mine forever" music. Romance has always been ABSENT in my life, and the closest I've come to living a novelistic love story was John. But then things(and fanfiction turned canon by me) happened, and the kid had this song on her computer,and I heard it, and actually fucking payed attention to the lyrics. You can figure out the rest.
I HATE Celine Dion.

"Bulletproof" by La Roux
First of all, anyone who points out the irony in this earns a one-way trip to the warehouse and a Hoffman makeover. That said, I don't really know what I like so much about this song. The lyrics are fine, I guess, and the tune is catchy, but it's no big deal. Still, it's on the list, and it makes me smile.
And while we're speaking of irony, I believe I should also mention this next song:

"Happiness Is a Warm Gun" by The Beatles
People should know that I don't like The Beatles at all; there's no real reason for this, I just don't like their music. But this song really got to me when I first payed attention to it, and it's now one of my favorites. People, never say "never", because that "never" will surely come back and bite you in the ass, and hard.

Other additions to the list that should also be mentioned are Regina Spektor, Amanda Palmer, P!nk and Nouvelle Vague.

Ok, so maybe I'm a sucker for lyrics. And maybe I've been listening to the Kid's music for a little too long. Hell, maybe I've been with the Kid for too long. Who knows, who cares.

Stay tuned for more today. Expect a deeper insight into the workings of my mind by tonight. I heard someone wanted to know about my nightmares...